A friend of mine has the coolest site. Forward Progress. This month's prompt was Forgiveness. This was so difficult for me. So much so, that I actually called my parents and confronted them. Something I haven't been able to do in years. I was able to voice feelings that I had held inside for years.
Doing this prompt helped me in the healing process.
With that being said...........here is my layout. The picture is an older one of me. I wanted it to represent that I am NOT that person any longer. I will post the hidden journaling here. I am going to slip it back into the pocket I made and then staple it shut when I am done. I will then put this layout in my personal Book of Me. I don't want my children to read this until they are older and able to understand.
This I know..........
I was there for my childhood. I was there for the abuse, manipulation, fear and shame. I was there when it was all brought to light and then denied. I was there when I waited for an apology but was instead called a liar. I was there when the one person who should have stood up for me chose her house, money and status instead of the safety of her children.
Can I forgive? I truly try. Some days I can. Some, it is not possible.
THIS I KNOW....I will never be that person who sits back when wrong is being done.
THIS I KNOW.......I will go forward from this point. I will choose to make sure MY children always feel safe and loved.
THIS I KNOW.......I will make it a point to let my brothers and sister know WE aren't to blame for our childhood, but we survived it. All of us are coping in our own ways but we are ALWAYS there for one another. I find comfort in that.
THIS I KNOW....I will take each day as it comes. I will NEVER again live in fear.